-M/\X/\TR0N!C-

I left tri-cities.  I really left.  It’s a mental thing.  But it ahd to be done in order to accept life at WSU, which I love.  I still love my best friends, and I’m sure anyone who’s reading this has read the note I posted on facebook earlier today.  I’m sorry…there were things that really hurt to leave behind, but maybe another day.

If there’s one quote that sums up a lot of my feelings right now, it’s this:

“The worst mistake I’ve ever made was try to do things to please the audience thinking how the audience is going to respond if I do this. And when I stopped doing that and started thinking about what feels natural and what feels right to me and started pleasing myself, then it became good. So I’m appreciative that people are liking what I’m doing, but whether they like it or not, it doesn’t matter, because I won’t change what I’m doing.”-Terrance Howard.

Hypocrites.  We all know ‘em, but more the truth no one wants to admit is that we all are them.  You all know this, don’t lie to yourselves.  There are differing degrees, but there’s no way that one person is not a hypocrite, and that’s the truth.

So I had a tumblr once before.  I guess I decided to make one again?  I have a constant need to express myself more and more lately and I guess why not create a blog in which people can choose to tune in and listen or not.

Anyways.

I’ve been feeling a lot of stuff lately.  Depression, lots of it.  Mainly because I don’t know what I want to do with my life anymore.  There are all of these possibilities in my head that are more appealing than this life path I’m on now.  I’ve always been told to follow my dreams and do what I want to do, but I have a feeling the same people that told me that would look down upon me if I pursued these things.

Idk, I can’t decide if it’s worth caring about.

I’ve really found that being away for a semester at school has introduced me to a lot of new people and a lot of new music, as well as meeting new people when I come back to the tri cities more frequently.

Nicki Minaj really is a talented artist, if you listen to her songs: “Fly” and “Save Me” you will see this.  She’s not just a crazy chic with fake multiple personalities.  She’s been on my zune for a couple days now.  I really have been digging Deadmau5, Tegan and Sara, Passion Pit, and Owl City more lately as well as other artists.  It’s late since I was woken up at 5:30 am by family, I can’t think straight anymore.  Maybe I’ll write more tomorrow, but like my life right now…

I can’t be sure about anything.  :-/